Hi Sonny,

My heart hurts right now. It will always be painful that you were born silent. Life just goes on painfully without you, LJ. You’re supposed to be in my arms right now, being cuddled, kissed and receiving tons of love.

You were too special to exist in this realm, my son, but I will meet you one day. I don’t know if you can look down from wherever you are, and see me crying right now, because you changed my life in so many ways.

It will always be strange not having you physically here with us, in the world I wanted you to see, still healing in my post partum period.

I am grateful you allowed me to experience a little piece of motherhood, during the time we shared together. I already miss your little movements and hiccups. You will forever be a part of my world.

I love you.
Mom